Day 5, Part 2 — Out the Shoot

Today is just one day, but I can say I made it through. I think that’s as intense as I’ve ever felt about wanting to just drink, without heading straight to the store and making it happen.

Indeed, it did pass.

I blogged and received some awesome support. I walked in the rain with my dog to get more sparkling water, and when I got back, I went to the gym in my building and erged (rowing machine) HARD for 20 minutes while listening to The Bubble Hour and Holly Whitaker and Laura McKowen’s Home Podcast. I showered, made some Sleepytime tea, and now I’ll read a bit before sleeping. I’m completely mellowed out. The danger has passed.

I skipped seeing some amazing music tonight because I just couldn’t trust myself at a nightclub, but that’s okay. I’ll have more chances to great music when I’m feeling more solid on my own two sober feet. And it will be worth it.

Phew. I’ve heard about the tough days and that was tough. But now with my dog sleeping at my feet and at 10:30 pm I’m still sober, I’m grateful I made it through.

And now for a little Allen Carr. I want to see what all the hubbub is about.


5 thoughts on “Day 5, Part 2 — Out the Shoot

  1. Hey Rachel! thanks for sharing your journey. I read all your entries… I want to wish you the best. The first sober weekend is one of the hardest things to go through. You just gotta stay strong and know you CAN do it. Today makes 53 days for me. If sobriety is really what you want, it will get easier! Using the tools and knowledge I have is what has kept me sober. As I read your blog, I was taken right back to my own day 5. It’s not always easy, but ohmygoddess it is SO worth it. Reading blogs from beginning to present was really helpful to me. Some went back several years, and its inspiring to see they didn’t give up as they struggled. My own journey has entries of a failed attempt at 100 days no alcohol challenge. I was going to remove them when I started blogging again, but decided to leave them up so people can see that people do fall and can come back stronger than ever. I’m not doing anyone a favor or helping them I’d my recovery looks like sunshine and glittery unicorn farts, it’s ugly, it sucks, and just not fun sometimes.

    Now that I’ve typed a novel…congrats on your sobriety. Stay strong, you can do it, and you are worth it!!


    • Oh, to get to 100 days and have to start over again! Thank you so much for this, WWTS. On this rainy Saturday, on not hungover and regretful, and I have so much to do today! I appreciate you taking the time to read and reach out. It really helps. 53 days is so awesome. I can’t wait to be able to say that. šŸ™‚

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      • Oh I never made it to 100 days, I gave in at day 16 on that attempt. But I will reach it this time! My first week 53 days seemed so far away, but it’s actually gone by quickly. I feel like I should only be on, like, day 15 or something. Haha

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