The Week Begins

It’s Monday and I made a commitment to blog every day for the next 97 days, even if just to say: I AM SOBER. AMEN.

So that’s pretty much it. I went to a SMART Recover class tonight, which was interesting. A cognitive behavioral approach to meetings facilitated by a therapist, focusing on thoughts and behaviors and interaction. No horror stories. No monologues. No powerlessness or talk of God. It was actually OK. I think I’ll go again next week.

One thing that was interesting: At one point when the therapist asked what I say to people when I say I’m not drinking. One of the answers I give is that I’m on a 100 Day Challenge, or (like last night when I was on a date — that’s another story) that I’m on a “cleanse.” He said, “You could just say, ‘I don’t drink.’ And it really doesn’t require explanation.”

Weird. It sounded so easy when he said it. 🙂 Hm.

I’m tired and I have to work some and get to bed early/on time — another commitment I made to myself.

So… g’night.

Rachel. Day 3.

8 thoughts on “The Week Begins

  1. Hi Rachel. I was away and I’m just catching up on your blog. I’m glad you went to the SMART meeting. Finding the right support is key. (And something I find tough to do.) I like what the coach said. I’ve been trying to just not drink and not explain it, with some success. Anyway, no great wisdom from me here. I’m just cheering you on! xo

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  2. It really is that easy. You don’t owe anyone an explanation.

    As an aside, one thing I have found extremely powerful in sobriety is honesty. I try to never lie. Not even small ones. It is unbelievably relieving.

    I look forward to your posts!

    Anne

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    • Thank you, Anne. It’s funny, I feel like something inside shifted — and I agree! I feel weird now about telling the guy I met that I was on a “cleanse.” (Especially because he asked me what I was going to be having for dinner that night — meaning juice — and I had to extend my “story,” AND because I’m having dinner with him this weekend and I’ll have to close up that lie and try to bring it around to the truth without being awkward. Too much energy! 🙂 ) I do advocate for anyone to say what feels comfortable to them and gets them through, and I admit I’m still squeamish about saying “I quit” — maybe that’s the Wine Harpy talking (Belle would say yes). Yes, probably is. But I’m good with saying “I’m going to keep this going for a while,” and just not drink. No lies (or deflections). Hell, Belle started out that way. So did Hey Monster. So did another friend of mine who stopped drinking when his wife got pregnant and never started again. So have others. Just get to 100 days and re-evaluate. I’m going to tell the truth and it IS such a huge relief!

      Thanks for being there. You’re awesome, lady. Truly.

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      • I stated it as a one year gift to myself.
        Had anyone asked me then if I had a “real problem” I would have vehemently denied it.

        Generally no one did. My drinking friends just couldn’t imagine I could do it. I didn’t think I could either!

        But I’m glad I did!

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