Moving and the wine glasses

I’m packing today for a move at the end of the month. I’m sad to be moving, so there’s THAT, and I decided to pack up all of my wine glasses and put them in a box, which I don’t plan to unpack in my new place. I won’t be needing them.

Right?

Wolfie has been whispering in my ear: “Won’t you need them? EVER? Aren’t you ever going to entertain again? You’re never drinking wine ever again? Aren’t you ever going to be NOOORMAL?”

Thanks for making this even harder, Wolfie.

I know drinking basically a bottle of red wine a night like I was isn’t normal, and there’s no going back to “normal.” (Although, as Ainsobriety rightly points out: being sober is actually our normal state…) But dayum, I’m completely triggered. All that romance and community and sensuous living I’ve tied to those glasses for so many years, smashing headlong into the new reality I’m creating. The new normal.

I said out loud, “I don’t need to decide any of that now! Leave me alone!” And I don’t.
I could keep them (will I need them to entertain? This mythical *someday* that hasn’t happened since i got divorced more than four years ago?) or I could gift them all to friends. I have no idea what to do with all that stuff right now, but I don’t have to figure it out today. I can store it away and decide later.

Man, that was a sucky moment. I’m still reeling. I’m not going to drink but I do wish I had someone to give me a long hug. Preferably a tall, handsome someone? Hehe.

Ah well. 🙂

I can be sad now. I can let myself feel that. Thinking about forever right now is too much. I’ll just commit to today.

And I will make my new apartment cozy and mine and full of only things that bring me joy. It won’t have an amazing view that makes me happy, but it will have upsides I don’t expect, I’m sure. And as for the mythical *someday* when I might wish for those wine glasses out of the box…I guess I’ll cross that bridge when I come to it.

Breathing….

Xo Rachel.

Day 15.

7 thoughts on “Moving and the wine glasses

  1. Rachel- I had the same experience. When I finally decided to stop drinking almost 10 months ago, I held onto my wine and beer glasses for awhile thinking I’d need them for guests. There was a part of me that didn’t want to completely break up with the lifestyle of drinking. I finally got over how it would look or sound to friends who came over that I wouldn’t have proper drinking vessels for them. It was actually quite comical at that point that I would hold onto glassware that I would never use for myself. So I took pictures of my fancier stuff and texted pics to my friends letting them know the stuff was up for grabs and they needed to pick it up within a couple of days. That worked, and the things I couldn’t give away to friends went to charity.

    When you’re truly ready to leave alcohol in your past, parting with any symbols of drinking will become effortless 🙂 Best to you!

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    • I love that idea! And good for you for 10 months! I’m not sure what to do. I am inclined to give them to friends, but as soon as I think about doing that, my chest seizes up a bit. I guess that tells me I just need to focus on TODAY and hopefully there will come a day when it will become effortless. It may take a while, and that’s ok. Thanks for your thoughts! R.

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      • You’re doing great, Rachel. I’ve followed your journey for awhile and read most of your posts. The hardest part about all of this for me is doing things that are outside of my comfort zone. Giving away wine glasses felt funny to me too. It was like saying goodbye to old friends. But the truth is that glassware is a symbol of my old life, and if I want something different, I have to be willing to try new things. That said, you have to go at your own pace. Too much change can be overwhelming. As you said, focus on TODAY. You can do this 🙂

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  2. I’m not tall or handsome but I’ll give you a hug! I still have wine glasses that are on display. It’s funny. They sit long enough to collect dust. I find joy in washing them and they’re pretty. 😊 I love hearing how we all move through these moments. I’m glad you made it though and talked about it here. Xo

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  3. Ah yes. Normal. Lol
    I have a few glasses that I like to drink cranberry and soda out of.
    And I keep champagne flutes for ginger ale toasts.

    I don’t encourage other to bring alcohol over anymore. Actually, I don’t have people over that much anymore. I don’t need to provide a drinking spot. I like to meet people for coffee. Much less stress.

    Our house was once known as the Simpsons sports bar….I think I’ve had enough hosting.

    Glasses are just things. I know I drank a lot out of water glasses, etc.
    Stay in today. It’s all we really have!

    Anne

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    • Thanks, Anne. Glasses ARE just things. It’s weird, though. It brings me face-to-face with “forever” when I consider giving them away. And I totally drank out of a huge water glass for a long time! 🙂

      Stay in today. Yes. I’ll do that and deal with those glasses (now safely boxed up) some other day. R.

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